Getting Real About Life, about Love, and about God

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Pity, Party of One. Scratch that Party of Two.

When I woke up this morning I was sick.
I have the headache, body ache, sore throat, runny nose stuff.
I woke up this morning I just wanted to feel sorry for Doug. I wanted Nicole and the kids to feel sorry for Doug. I wanted to have my own little pity party for Doug, because I was sick. The good news is that no one in the family was going to allow me to have that party and if I was going to have that party it was going to be a party for one and after I did the things that had to be done.

This us usually how pity parties go. They are parties that we have all by ourselves because the focus of a pity party is us. I am sick. I want to feel sorry for me. I want others to pamper me. I want them to feel sorry for me. ME. ME. ME. It is MY party and I will cry if I want to. It is all about I, me, and my.

So, I woke up sick. No one wanted to join me for a pity party. I was focusing on poor me and then I read the 139th Psalm.

O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.
You hem me in—behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I go from your Spirit?

Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,"
even the darkness will not be dark to you;

the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful,

I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand.

When I awake, I am still with you.

Pity parties are never parties of one. They are always a party of at least two. God is with me. God is with you. There is no place that we can go and escape God's presence. God is with us in our pity parties. Why? Because God cares.

God doesn't however, want us to just dwell in our pity. He doesn't want us to waste our time feeling sorry for ourselves or becoming self absorbed. The thing that we need to do is stop focusing on ourselves and focus on God.

God is with us. God is in control. The world will keep rotating. Healing will come. God is God. We are his creation. We are fearfully and wonderfully made. No matter what are situation or where we are at God is with us. God is working in us and through us in every moment. It is always a party of two!

Love today,
In Christ love and mine,

1 comment:

Tammyb said...

Sorry you got the crud! Hope you are feeling better soon. Sometimes when you're sick it is okay to let those who love you take care of you, and it's your bodies way of saying you need some down time. We all need to feel that we are "cared about", it's when we take advantage and allow it to go on to long or when we really aren't sick, just feeling sorry for ourselves. If you're really sick - then you're really sick. Feel better!